Has the love faded or has it grown?

Being in a long distance relationship is one of the hardest thing to do. It's fulfilling in a sense that someone loves you but painful because you're not physically together. It is true when someone said abscence makes the heart grow fonder. Whenever imi and i would see each other (not online), the feeling is so wonderful because finally you get to actually kiss, hug and hold the person. When she or I have to go back home, the separation was the most painful thing i have every felt.

When we're not together we spend most of our time at the computer. Webcamming, skyping, emailing.. trying to spend as much time as possible. Of course the distance is an issue. However, going back to the statement, sometimes a long abscence can make love fade or stop making the relationship work. Because of so many forces around us that's trying to keep separating us such as people, visa etc... sometimes i wonder, if i should still continue it. My partner was right, it's not a normal relationship. Anyone in their right mind would say not to continue the relationship because for others it will not work. After so many conversation of not continuing our relationship and seeing how unhappy the person is, sometimes i wonder if i'm just being selfish in continuing the relationship. AFter all, it's making the person unhappy.

However, because of the growing desire to be with the person, some are motivated to work for it.. finding ways to be together even if it means jumping off the cliff. It may not be as realistic as anyone would want it to be, but sometimes, nothing can actually stop love. When two persons love each other, these two persons go beyond their capabilities only to be together. It's how two people connect, despite the distance and the loneliness... also, it's how two people are motivated to live through life's disappointments, it's how they move on in life. Of course, it's devastating if one of the plans failed for some reasons but because of love felt for each other, they shouldn't give up and not think that it just mean something like.. not meant to be together. I think saying that it failed because maybe it means it's not meant to be is bullshit because right from the beginning, things like that was already known that it's bound to happen. I think that as long as there's love, there's hope.

I do hope that she still loves me and continue fighting for us and hoping for a good future for the both of us despite the distance. There will be so many challenges but it's all worth it to go through it all just to be together.